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Title: Eighteen
Pros and Cons
Author: Terri
Rating: PG-13
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I don't own either one :(
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Summary:
Sequel to Eighteen Flashbacks. Logan and Rogue have a logical discussion about
whether or not to pursue the bad guys.
Series: Eighteen #35 Comments:
One of my best friends always says that the best way to make a big decision
is to make a list of all the reasons to do something and all the reasons
not to. Count them up, and, voila, decision made. I've never been able to
do that, to actually make a decision that way, but it's a nice idea.....
------------------------------------------------------------ "Well, she
couldn't have gone that far, and we should be able to find her. If we find
her, we can kill her."
"Well, that's
definitely one in the plus column there."
"Killing
Sabretooth is a definite plus as well."
"Hell yeah.
I'm gonna fuck him up real good."
"It would
give us both some closure."
"And revenge."
"That too."
"It would
keep you safe from them for the rest of your life. No more of this bein' attacked
shit."
"It would
keep the rest of the world safe from them too. I mean, thank God Jubilee's
fine this time, but......"
"Yeah."
"There are
also some reasons we shouldn't chase Mystique or try to find Sabretooth, Logan."
"Like?"
"Like Sabretooth
could be very hard to find. The government's probably got him buried pretty
deep."
"We got time."
"True. But
there's also the chance that we could alert the government to us. I mean,
they're still not sure it was you in Los Alamos. And-well, hopefully-they
don't know anything about me."
"That's true.
I don't wanna risk them gettin' a hold of you."
"Plus, there's
always the chance that you and I, even together, couldn't kill him even if
we did find him. He might end up hurting or killing us."
"He ain't
gonna kill me. And you'd be stayin' the hell away from him."
"But why
go to all that trouble if the government's screwing with him for us? I mean,
they might end up killing him themselves."
"I wanna
do it. He's fuckin' mine."
"OK. OK.
I understand. There are other reasons, though."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah. I
don't want to lose you. You could get hurt, killed, or captured by the government.
That's definitely one in the minus column."
"I ain't-"
"Logan, you
can't be sure. You can't be sure. Look at our past. Don't-I don't want to
take that chance."
"Darlin'...."
"And what
about me? If something happens to you or not, I could be left alone for a
while and something could happen to me then. That's a minus as far as I'm
concerned. I don't want to have to think about the possibility of having to
face Sabretooth or the government men without you."
"No. No,
I don't either. OK, that's a minus."
"Another
reason is just....I want to put it behind us. I don't want to obsess over
it. It-it could take months to find them both. I don't want it to take up
that much of our lives. That would be a big minus to me."
"OK. I see
that. What else?"
"We'd still
be in the survival mode. So much of our life-at least what I remember-is
in the survival mode. We've barely had any time to just live and be happy.
I want that. And I don't want to have to wait to have it."
"I know what
you mean there, baby. I-I don't want to put that off either."
"And I want
us to build a life. A normal life. I want-I want to try to learn to control
my mutation and-"
"Whoa. Hang
on there. I thought we were gonna talk about doin' that 'cause it's dangerous.
Your head-"
"We will
talk about it. We will. And I'll be safe, as safe as possible if we decide
to try. But if we go after them, well, it's just more time lost. Less time
I'll have to get it right."
"I dunno."
"We don't
have to talk about all that now. There are more reasons not to go after them
that I want to talk about."
"Go ahead."
"I'm-I'm
not sure I'm up to it. I-all this stuff with Sabretooth and Mystique not
really being dead, I need time to deal with it. If we wait, the trail will
get colder, I know, but I just don't know if I can really-"
"You don't
hafta explain that one, darlin'. I know."
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be.
I understand. It's OK."
"I'm really
sorry. I feel....I don't know....weak for needing that. But I do. I know I
do."
"It's OK.
It ain't weak. It's normal. You've been through a helluva lot, baby."
"Thanks.
Thanks for understanding that. I love you a lot, you know?"
"Love you
too. It's gonna be OK. It will. Like it always is. I promise you, baby."
"Good. Because
I believe that. I really, really do."
"Anythin'
else?"
"Yeah. I
don't want to stay at the mansion. That's trivial, I know, but we'd need
the Professor's help, and I don't like staying here. It's a minus, but not
a huge one."
"OK."
"That's it.
Any for you? Any that we haven't mentioned?"
"Just two.
On the plus side-you're safest with them dead."
"We said
that already."
"It should
count twice, definitely. 'Cause that's the most important thing."
"OK, sugar.
What's the other one?"
"All I wanna
do right now is take you back home. Take you back home, put you in our bed,
and make love to you over and over. Can't do that if we decide to go after
'em instead. I mean, we have stuff now. I never had this - a home, someone
I loved so damn much, a life that I love, you know? I wanna keep that, and
I don't wanna give up a single second of it if I can help it."
"I want that
too."
"Then, I
guess we're decided. Hmm."
"What?"
"Never thought
I'd see the day that I passed on a chance for bloody revenge."
"We've got
something better to get to. Something a lot better."
"Yeah, we
do. We sure do, darlin'."
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