Title: One
Night Only
Author:
Terri
E-mail:
xgrrl26@yahoo.com
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Rating:
NC-17
Disclaimer:
I don't own any of them. Darn.
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Feedback:
Please? With a cherry on top? Good, bad, and ugly welcome, but I'll
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Summary:
Scott gets stranded at Logan's cabin for a night. Marie ends up getting
quite a bit of attention from them both.
Comments:
I wholeheartedly and unequivocally blame Karen for this one ;) She planted
the idea of a Scott/Rogue/Logan story in my brain and it mutated into a rabid
plot bunny. I literally could not write anything else until this one
was done. The problem was - I couldn't think of a situation where Logan
would be, ahem, willing to share and where Scott would jump right in.
I'm still not entirely sure that this one worked, but at least that bunny
is off my tail ;)
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"Dammit,
Scooter, I toldya it was gonna snow." Logan paced the small cabin he
had shared with Marie for almost a year now. He'd reluctantly consented
to Scott's January visit, knowing that his nearby mission would be a strenuous
one, and that he needed a home base to operate from. It was a chance
to pay back the debt of honor that he felt he owed Xavier for taking Marie
in and taking care of her. Logan had also taken Scott's word that he
wouldn't be staying with them overnight, just for a few hours until the blackbird
could get out there to pick him up.
"Look, that's
not my fault. Do you really think I want to spend any more time with
you than absolutely necessary? This was the Professor's idea, not mine."
Scott caught sight on Rogue lowering her eyes to the floor and frowning at
his words. He didn't approve of her decision to take Logan back after
his fling with Jean, but he knew his presence was bringing up painful reminders
of the affair. Fighting with Logan wouldn't help. "Sorry.
I'm just a little on edge."
Logan grunted
at him. "You're sleepin' on the floor." Marie wordlessly went
to the one-room cabin's closet to get the some blankets for Scott.
Logan finally caught sight of her sad demeanor. He too guessed that
Scott's arrival had stirred up bad memories for Marie, and he inwardly chastised
himself for getting caught up in his own irritation. "I'll get those,
darlin'."
"No, no,
it's OK. I've got it." She turned her head to give him a shaky
smile while still rooting around in the closet with both hands. Logan
crossed the room to stand next to her anyway. He still hadn't found
a way to convince her that he was finished with Jean. She still thought
of herself as second choice, second best, undesirable.
That Jean
had gone around telling everyone she was the one to break it off with Logan
hadn't helped. In reality, Logan was the one who'd finally ended it,
after months of growing unhappiness between them. Jean was in love
with Scott, even as she warmed Logan's bed, and Logan was beginning to admit
to himself that he was in love with Marie. When he found himself having
to bite his tongue to keep from calling out Marie's name in bed, he knew
it was over and told Jean so. He'd anticipated keeping it private,
but, at the mansion's Sunday dinner, Jean took it upon herself to make an
announcement of sorts. She set about pursuing Scott immediately, and
that gave further credence to her claims. Logan didn't much care what
everyone thought - except for Marie.
In the year
they'd been together, he tried to reassure her in every way he could think
of. Even moving to the cabin had been a way to try to make Marie feel
more secure - Logan knew that living in the same house as Jean would make
Marie constantly anxious. He told her he loved her all the time.
He told her over and over that he didn't want Jean, that she was nothing
next to Marie. He told Marie that she was more beautiful, more special,
sexier, smarter, younger, more interesting. None of it seemed to make
much difference; his actions had spoken much louder than his words probably
ever could. He could still feel the pain and insecurity in Marie.
It was especially
difficult now - Marie had just figured out that she was pregnant a few weeks
ago. It wasn't really a big surprise - they hadn't been trying to conceive,
but they made love without taking contraceptive measures nearly every day.
Logan was overjoyed, but Marie seemed to react to the news with equanimity.
She told Logan that she wouldn't want to have anyone else's child, and that
she was thrilled that she'd learned to control her mutation and could give
him a baby, but there was also a sadness hanging over her too. She
asked him often how he felt about it, and, while he was careful to always
enthusiastically reassure her, he still got the impression that Marie somehow
thought he'd prefer having a child with Jean. Marie had said once that
maybe the child would have red hair - there was an aunt on her side that
did. The hopeful look on her face when she said it had just about broken
Logan's heart.
"I think
these should be OK." Marie offered a thick pile of blankets to Scott.
"You can take the chair next to the bed if you don't want to sleep on the
floor. We can keep the fire up so you won't be cold."
"Thanks."
Scott took the proffered blankets with a wink. That earned him a small
smile, one which he returned with great warmth.
Logan put
a protective hand on the small of Marie's back. He knew that she'd
grown close to Scott during the affair. When Scott took Jean back,
Logan could tell that Marie felt rejected in favor of Jean yet again, even
though he didn't think anything romantic had gone on between them.
That made his anger toward Scott flare, but he also realized that Marie's
hurt had begun with his own actions. Scott's acceptance of Jean only
compounded a problem that was already there. Logan took a deep breath
and tried to steady his emotions. Scott would be gone in the morning,
and he could once again set about trying to work on his relationship with
Marie. "There's some coffee on the stove. We're gonna go to bed.
Marie needs some rest." Marie nodded her agreement, gave Scott one
last smile, and allowed Logan to steer her toward the bed.
Marie awoke
with a start, abruptly coming out of one of Logan's harsher nightmares.
She sat up in bed for a moment, and, after her initial cry, tried to stop
herself from making any further noise that would wake the two men.
She soon felt Logan's large hands on her shoulders, pulling her back down
on the bed and into his embrace.
"Shhh,"
he whispered. "It's OK, darlin'. You're safe, you're with me.
You're OK." He embraced her tightly.
"Sorry,"
she whispered back. They both lay together silently for a while.
At length, she felt Logan nuzzling her neck and beginning to lay gentle kisses
along it. She knew that was usually a prelude to lovemaking, but, with Scott
in the same room, she was sure Logan wouldn't want to do that. She
lay back and tried to focus on enjoying his attentions, tried to push the
nightmare out of her mind.
Soon, however,
Logan's hands moved to unbutton her nightgown and massage her breasts.
She looked at him questioningly in the light of the fire, but he only responded
with an open-mouthed, deep kiss. When he finally broke from her, Marie
whispered, "Logan, we can't. Scott's - Scott's right there."
Logan didn't
reply, but he did finish unbuttoning her gown and slowly traced a path with
his tongue from her neck to one breast. He began rhythmically sucking
on one nipple, and he could smell Marie's arousal begin to build.
"Logan,"
she protested, even as she writhed a little beneath his touch.
"Shhh.
Let me." He returned his mouth to her body, kissing and licking further
south until he reached her soft, dark curls. He liked to comfort her
this way after a nightmare. She seemed to let herself go a little these
times, seemed to open herself up more than usual. She was often shy
in bed, unsure of herself, but desperately wanting to please him. She
rarely let herself orgasm before Logan was satisfied several times over.
After a nightmare, though, she would let him please her, and few signs of
insecurity surfaced. Logan wanted to give her pleasure at every opportunity,
and was not about to let Scott's presence deter him. Before opening
her legs, he whispered, "Let me, Marie, please." He felt her thigh
muscles relax and he knew she was giving him permission.
He was always
gentle with her when he pleased her this way, and always thorough. He
took his time, caressing with both fingers and tongue, enjoying the sighs
and soft moans he drew from her. Soon, he could feel her getting close.
This was sometimes tricky, even during those times when Marie was relaxed.
Sometimes she still just couldn't let herself go, couldn't give herself over
to him. Logan redoubled his efforts, concentrating on what he knew
were Marie's favorites, to be sure she found release with him now.
His efforts
were rewarded when he felt her arch and squirm against him. He didn't
move his mouth from her until he was sure he'd wrung every last bit of pleasure
from her body, and until he had tasted her thoroughly. He lifted his
head to see her lying back on the bed, satiated and exhausted. He smiled
at that. He always thought it was when she looked most beautiful.
He slid
back up along her body and cradled her close to him. She melted into
his embrace, still trying to catch her breath a little. Logan glanced
over at Scott. He appeared to be asleep - Logan couldn't see his eyes
through the glasses, but Scott was still and breathing evenly. Something
about his scent and his heartbeat, though, led Logan to believe he was awake.
Logan thought about that for a few minutes as he held Marie, and then made
a decision.
Gently rolling
her onto her back, he ground his hips into hers so that she could feel his
erection. She looked up at him, with the familiar expression of wanting
to please him, but then she glanced over at Scott, only a few feet away from
her. "Logan - "
"I need
you, Marie."
"But - "
"It's OK,
it's OK." Logan divested himself of his boxers and maneuvered his hips
to rest in the cradle of Marie's. "I love you so much, Marie, so much.
You're everythin' to me. You're so beautiful, so desirable."
She responded, predictably, with a shy blush and downcast eyes. "Let
me show you." He eased himself inside her, and began to thrust.
He didn't try to mute his grunts of pleasure, and Marie was soon mewling
in response to his rhythm.
That encouraged
him to go harder, faster. He flung the blankets aside, repositioned
Marie a little, and began uninhibitedly riding her. "So good," she
half-moaned, half-whispered. As Logan got even wilder, her head lolled
to the side, catching sight of Scott.
The first
thing Marie noticed was that he'd flung off his blankets as well. The
thought that they were making the room too hot with their activity flitted
through her head before she noticed that his hand was moving in his lap.
It took another second or two for her mind to piece together that he was stroking
himself, that he was watching them.
Her body
tensed immediately. "Logan, no - stop - Scott - "
"I know,"
he grunted out, not breaking his pace. "It's all right."
"Don't stop,"
Scott whispered, still moving only his hand. Marie took a little closer
look at him. He'd drawn his very large and erect penis out in the gap
in Logan's borrowed pajama bottoms. His hand moved with practiced ease
up and down the shaft, keeping time with Logan's thrusts into her.
"Grrrr."
Logan was close now, Marie knew. Even though somewhere in her mind,
the part that still recalled her strict southern upbringing, she knew it
was wrong, some part of her was deeply gratified by being the object of desire
for both of these men. Even if they weren't really thinking about her,
she thought, even if it's only for a moment. It felt good, satisfying,
and Marie left her gaze with Scott as she dug her fingers into Logan's back.
"GRRR!" She felt her own body come alive and began rocking her hips
in time with Logan's. She noted with something like womanly pride that
Scott's hand immediately began moving faster.
"Yes," she
sighed, feeling an orgasm building. "Logan."
"GRRRRRRR!"
He gave several uncontrolled, erratic thrusts as he came inside her, but they
all managed to hit her just right. Her back arched, her breasts thrust
upward, and she closed her eyes for just a second. When they opened
again, her head was still turned toward Scott, whom she now saw shaking and
hunched over. She thought she met his eyes behind the glasses for a
second as he spurted generous amounts of semen all over the borrowed pajamas
and the chair. She was so entranced by him that it took her a moment
to register what Logan was whispering to her.
"That's it,
that's it, baby. Do you see what you do to me? To men?
God, darlin', you're incredible." Logan underlined his comments with
a soft lick of her sweaty neck. He finished tasting her, then rested
his cheek against hers, nudging her to look back over at a spent, panting
Scott. "He wants ya, darlin', bad, just like me. Ain't that right?"
Scott caught
something insistent in Logan's expression, and he went with his instincts,
and the truth. "Yes, I do."
Logan felt
Marie's skin heat with a blush. "But - but you have Jean," she whispered
before she could stop herself.
"I want
you," Scott replied. "I'm settling for her." It was the truth.
He'd become very attracted to Marie while Jean was occupied elsewhere.
No small part of his disappointment with her welcoming Logan back into her
life was due to his own desire to explore a relationship with Marie.
Getting back together with Jean was, at first, an attempt to get some gratification
out of seeing her grovel and beg his forgiveness for the affair. It
was petty, Scott knew, and beneath him, but his pride and his heart had been
deeply wounded. It changed him in ways that even he hadn't expected.
He found himself tiring of always doing the right thing, always being everyone's
Boy Scout.
Now, he
and Jean were simply treading water. It was a comfortable existence
for Scott. He only gave what he was willing to, which was very little.
In exchange, he got the chance to watch Jean go through a little of the pain
she'd inflicted on him, and the opportunity to decide whether to seriously
pursue a relationship with her at his leisure. He did know one thing
- he wasn't as attracted to Jean as he once was, even if Jean did seem genuine
about wanting to repair things between them. On the rare occasions
that they made love, Scott found himself thinking of other women - most often
Ororo and Marie, both of whom had bodies that were lush and full, a sharp
contrast to Jean's angled, boxy form.
"No.."
Marie shook her head in disbelief.
"Yes," Scott
insisted, leaving the chair to sit beside her on the edge of the bed.
Logan tensed, and held her closer. Scott met the other man's eyes and
hoped Logan would realize his intent. Scott slowly but deliberately
reached out to stroke Marie's cheek. "You're like some goddess, Marie.
I can't think of a man who wouldn't want you. Watching you now - that's
the most excited I've been in a long time. In too long a time," he
mused.
"Really?"
Marie looked from Scott to Logan in confusion. Logan answered for them
both.
"Yeah.
I dunno how else to show you, Marie. I dunno how to make you believe
it." One of Logan's hands wound around to caress her bare breast, and
he nodded briefly at Scott. "Let us show you. Just for tonight,
let us show you, Marie."
"Are - are
you saying - " Marie cut herself off to squirm around and get a better
look at Logan. His possessiveness was legendary and especially now
that she was carrying his child, she thought he couldn't possibly be suggesting
that they all -
"I decide
what. I decide how. But yeah. I'm saying - yeah."
His eyes became soft and he lowered his forehead to touch hers. "I
wantcha to have this."
Without
breaking Logan's intense gaze, Marie whispered, "Scott?"
In reply,
he eased himself down beside her, scooting both her and Logan over a little
in the process. "If you want to," he finally said when he was completely
horizontal. Marie didn't answer in words at first either, she simply
shifted to lie on her back between the two men. Logan ran a large hand
over her stomach. She lay quiet for a while, but then took Scott's
hand in hers and lay it on her breast. Turning her head to seek Logan's
approval, she removed her hand from Scott's when she saw the soft look in
Logan's eyes.
Scott propped
himself up a little, so that he leaned over her. Logan's hand remained
on her stomach, but he lay down on his back, seemingly assenting to Scott's
actions. Scott caressed Marie's breasts gently, stopping occasionally
to pinch her nipple. Sensing that Marie was still tense, he didn't
go any further, lingering there for quite a long time. That was fine
by Scott - Marie had generous breasts, and he'd never been with a woman who
had. Finally, though, Logan began kissing Marie's face and whispering
encouragements to her, asking her to let go and enjoy Scott's attentions,
telling her not to worry about displeasing him. Marie did relax at
that, and Scott slowly began moving his hands down her body.
She parted
her legs a little to accommodate his caresses, opening more fully as he delved
a finger inside her. He touched her completely differently than Logan.
Marie knew that she didn't have a breadth of sexual experience to judge by,
but she thought that the two men must be as polarly opposite in bed as they
were in other matters. Where Logan would touch her firmly, insistently,
sensually, Scott was exploring, using light-as-a-feather, almost chaste caresses.
Where Logan would focus on giving her pleasure, Scott was taking his own
pleasure in canvassing her body, letting his own desires guide his touches.
Marie shifted and moaned as she let the sensations Scott was producing wash
over her.
Feeling Marie's
arousal deepen, Scott looked to Logan for a moment, then began kissing his
way down Marie's body. When his mouth reached her sex, he began sucking
and licking all over, only occasionally brushing against her pleasure center.
Marie teetered on the edge of satisfaction each time he brushed against her,
and, after many long moments, she plunged a hand into his hair and directed
him to where she desired. Scott relented, letting Marie take over the
pace. She bucked her hips into his mouth - slowly at first, then more
frantically - as she sought release. When he thought she could take
no more, Scott gave several quick, firm licks to her most sensitive spots,
sending her careening over the edge.
Scott levered
himself up from her body to see Logan holding her, caressing her. Scott
was touched by that - there was a generosity and tenderness there that he'd
never have credited Logan with. Scott watched them a moment before positioning
himself to enter Marie. He splayed her legs apart, and just as he was
about to slick the head of his penis with her juices, he felt her small hand
on his thigh. "Wait," she whispered, looking over at Logan. "I
- I don't want to - "
"It's OK
if you do wanna. Just this one time. I'm here with you and I
- it's OK, Marie." It was visibly difficult for him to get the words
out, and tears began to pool in Marie's eyes.
"No, sugar,"
she whispered. "I - some things are just for you." She ran a
hand over her stomach and, although the significance was lost on Scott, Logan
understood. Marie gave him a gentle smile and then turned to face Scott,
who was still kneeling over her. "I'm sorry, I just - it doesn't seem
right." She blushed, and shook her head a little, no doubt feeling
the absurdity of her words given their current situation.
"It's OK,"
Scott soothed, sitting back to rest his buttocks on his feet and smiling at
her a little. He'd been very glad to have the chance to touch her,
to be the one to bring her to orgasm, to watch her as she drifted in pleasure
at his touch. But he still needed his own release. His erection
was still quite prominent, and he thought for a moment about what to do about
that now.
Marie decided
for him, after another quick glance at Logan. Slowly maneuvering around
to get on her hands and knees in front of Scott, she met his eyes, and seeing
desire there, gently ran the tip of her tongue over the tip of his engorged
penis. Scott shuddered at that and couldn't restrain himself from
thrusting toward Marie a little. His entire body hummed with want, and
Marie didn't make him wait.
She leaned
forward, taking the length of him in her mouth. Scott groaned at the
hot wetness that had engulfed him. Marie began to suck him firmly,
winding one hand around his buttocks to encourage him to thrust in her mouth.
Taking that cue, Scott plunged both hands into her hair, stilling her movements
and thrusting harder. He was almost too far gone to hear a low growl
escape from Logan, but he caught it, then watched as the other man positioned
himself behind Marie.
Logan entered
her without warning, and she startled a little. Scott eased his grip
on her head and made it a caress while Logan began gently stroking her hips
and back. As Marie relaxed and Logan began to pump against her, Scott
resumed his own thrusts, matching his rhythm to Logan's.
"God," Logan
moaned, sinking his fingers into the soft flesh of Marie's buttocks.
Scott watched Logan penetrating Marie for a few moments before turning his
gaze directly downward and watching with rapt attention as her full, pink
lips encircled him. The first time he'd been with Jean, she rarely
indulged him in oral sex, and never asked for it herself. After they'd
gotten back together, she'd offered it to him incessantly, hoping to ingratiate
herself with him at least sexually. Scott often refused - he knew she
didn't enjoy it and was only doing it to try to make things up to him.
He had no desire to humiliate her or to have her do things he knew she would
rather not. Jean usually looked very sad when he refused.
"Baby," Logan
gasped out, "It's so good." He seemed almost unaware of Scott, completely
lost in Marie. Scott turned his thoughts back to the woman with him,
and firmly put Jean out of his mind. Marie was still letting him guide
the pace, but was swirling her tongue around him as he thrust into her mouth,
avidly sucking and licking him inside.
"Close,"
he grunted. "I'm close, Marie." She responded by relaxing her
throat muscles and anchoring both hands on his hips. That action, that
encouragement, was all he needed to go over the edge. He'd never had
a woman swallow his come before, and the thought of Marie doing it now made
him explode with desire. "Marie - Marie!"
She felt
him pouring into her mouth and gently swallowed around him. He tasted
different than Logan - not as thick, not as salty, sweeter. She continued
to softly lick and suck him as he spent every last drop then she slowly eased
him from her mouth. She looked up at Scott, and unconsciously licked
her red, swollen lips. "Marie," he whispered with affection and satisfaction.
Scott fell
back to a sitting position on the bed, watching as Logan's arms came around
Marie, both hands grabbing her breasts and pulling her a little more upright.
He could see where she and Logan were intimately joined and he found himself
jealous. He wanted to feel her softness, her heat. Logan must
have sensed some of what Scott was feeling - he cast a dark glare at him
over Rogue's shoulder. Logan's lip curled in a snarl, and one hand
slid toward Marie's sex.
Logan began
touching her, not at all gently, and increased the force and speed of his
thrusts. Marie was writhing, moaning, almost delirious with pleasure.
Scott couldn't help touching himself again, even though he was nowhere near
ready to become hard yet. Marie's eyes drifted open and shut, her body
completely pliant, as Logan continued. Suddenly, Marie shook and stiffened
in Logan's arms, her hands flailing back toward Logan's body. She let
out a loud, deep cry of pleasure, which Logan answered a second later.
As they both came back to themselves, Scott caught Logan giving him a triumphant
look, as though he was saying - this is what I have, this is what I make
her do.
Scott turned
his eyes to Marie's and her expression was completely different. There
was so much love in her eyes, Scott thought. Logan was stroking her
stomach again and whispering something in her ear. The viscous stream
of white liquid running down Marie's inner thigh caught Scott's attention,
and he found himself wondering when he started thinking that sex had to be
neat, clean, tame. Marie turned her head to look at Logan, and he took
immediate advantage of her doing so, kissing her deeply and sitting her back
down on the bed in his lap as he did so.
Scott crawled
over to them a little, and as soon as Marie's mouth broke from Logan's, Scott
captured it in his own. His kiss was gentle, tender, affectionate, and
quick. He sat back from the couple, watching Marie sink back into Logan's
embrace. "Thank you." Scott didn't know if he meant the words
for Marie or Logan or both. Marie smiled; Logan's expression was unreadable.
"Come on,
Logan," Marie said gently, "Let's get some sleep." She looked peaceful
for the first time that Scott could remember. Logan flicked his head
at Scott, indicating that he should return to the chair, and then lay her
down and covered her with blankets. He curled himself around her, placing
his body between her and Scott. Whispering a few 'I love you's before
drifting off himself, Logan finally seemed at peace as well.
Scott awoke
first, the chair being considerably less comfortable than Logan and Marie's
bed. He borrowed some more of Logan's clothes and rekindled the fire
that had dimmed during the night. The storm had cleared and the blackbird
would have no trouble picking him up. He put some fresh coffee on,
and called back to the mansion. It would take them about two hours,
Scott thought, and that would give him plenty of time to relax and process
what had happened.
No one would've
believed the rigid, tightly controlled leader of the x-men would ever behave
as Scott had last night. He didn't have any regrets, though. He
had no sense of embarrassment or impropriety. What happened seemed
somehow natural and right. He sipped his coffee and pondered how that
could be so while waiting for Logan and Marie to wake.
Logan woke
first, probably stirred by the smell of the coffee. He immediately sought
out Scott, and after getting a visual fix on his location, sank back into
bed for a while. Scott saw his hands moving beneath the covers, caressing
Marie's body. She didn't wake, but her lips curled in a sleepy smile.
Logan pressed a kiss to her hair, then got out of bed. He didn't bother
to put any clothing on, he just wandered into the small kitchen and poured
himself some coffee. Not for the first time, Scott wondered what Rogue
saw in him.
"They should
be here in about 20 minutes."
"Mph."
"You were
very good to her last night." Scot hadn't really intended on having
a conversation with Logan about what had happened, but that seemed to pop
out of its own volition.
"Yeah."
"Why did
you do it?" Scott fixed his gaze on Logan, intent of observing him
as he answered the question.
"None of
your business, One-Eye." Logan stared back. "Don't think you're
ever gonna lay a hand on her again."
"You know
what I think? I think she hasn't been happy with you since you got together.
I think you finally realize how special she is and you want to hang on to
her. I think you're desperate enough to try almost anything to get
her to stay."
Logan paused
for a moment, apparently giving Scott's words some consideration. "Nobody's
forcin' her to stay. She loves me. She wants to be with me."
His words lacked any passion; they tumbled out of his mouth in an empty, almost
bitter tone.
"Look what
that's gotten her. Nothing but heartache." Scott had never confronted
Logan about the affair with Jean, not directly, but now, finally, he felt
he had to say something. "What the hell were you thinking, Logan?
You knew she loved you when you got in bed with Jean. You knew you'd
hurt her, probably in ways you'd never be able to fix. What the hell
were you thinking?"
"That she'd
hurt more if I loved her. That I'd never be what she needed."
Logan's eyes had darkened, and he focused his gaze into his coffee cup.
"You're
not," Scott blurted out.
"I know
that." Logan's quiet admission stunned Scott. "But she - she
can't stop lovin' me and I can't stop lovin' her. Don't have nothin'
to do with what's right or what's best."
"So - so
what? You're going to just live together here, try to make her happy?"
"Yeah."
Logan took a long sip of the coffee. "Ain't that what you're tryin'
to do with Jeannie?"
"I - "
Scott cut himself off, suddenly not sure how to answer. He hadn't been
trying to make Jean happy; she'd been trying to make him happy, to win him
back, but he hadn't been trying to make her happy at all. I've been
trying to punish her, Scott thought, I've been punishing her for what she
did to me. "I don't know. I don't think I'll ever trust her again.
I don't think we can put our relationship back together."
"Hmph,"
Logan grunted. "What you said 'bout wantin' Marie but settlin' for
Jeannie - that was right, wasn't it?"
Scott took
a step back, putting some distance between himself and Logan before he answered
the question. "Yes. It's at least a little true, at least some.
I know what I don't want. I know I don't want Jean anymore. I
could've loved Rogue."
"You ain't
gonna take her away from me," Logan said, a little too calmly. "She
don't love you. What happened with her and you last night - she woulda
never done it if I hadn't said yes to it, if I hadn't started it. Don't
go thinkin' she has some thing for you 'cause she don't."
"Are you
so sure of that?" Scott jibed, even as the emotional reality that Rogue
*didn't* care for him made itself known.
"Yeah," Logan
answered in that same resigned, blank tone he'd used before. "Do ya
think if she had any other options, if she could really make herself stop
lovin' me, that she'd still be with me?" Logan gave a wry smile with
the words, but they struck at Scott's heart. He stood there simply
staring at Logan, for the first time feeling sorry for him.
"Mmmm"
Marie's sleepy moan brought both men out of their thoughts. "You up?"
"Yeah, darlin',"
Logan answered. "X-men should be here to pick up Scooter soon.
Want some tea?" Marie had stopped drinking coffee in favor of herbal
tea since she had gotten pregnant.
"Sure.
Thanks." Logan smiled at that. Marie usually wouldn't let him
bring her tea in bed, preferring to get up and start cooking breakfast for
him. Logan thought it might be a good sign that she was willing to
let him pamper her a little.
Marie scooted
up into a sitting position and leaned back against the headboard, pulling
the blankets up with her to keep her naked form covered. As Logan fussed
in the kitchen with the tea, Scott went over to sit beside her. "How
are you feeling this morning?"
"Good.
Oddly unembarrassed. Almost embarrassingly unembarrassed." She
blushed and folded her hands over in her lap. "How about you?"
"About the
same," Scott offered, smiling a little. "It was good to see you happy."
"But you're
not happy, are you?" Marie whispered. "Things - things must be pretty
bad with Jean for you to - "
"That's not
why," Scott interrupted. "That was all about you and not at all about
Jean." Logan had paused his tea preparations to listen in on their
conversation. Neither Scott or Marie noticed. "I meant everything
I said, everything we did. I want you to know that." That brought
a smile to Marie's lips and Logan let out a breath. They heard a growing
hum approaching from the east, and Scott knew that would be the blackbird,
coming to pick him up. "I've got to go." Marie nodded, and Scott
planted a soft kiss on her forehead before leaving her side. He looked
over at Logan, still standing naked in the kitchen. "Are you going
to put any clothes on?"
Logan grumbled
but pulled on his boxers, discarded from the night before. He snagged
Marie's nightgown from the floor, and brought it over with her tea.
She was about to try to wiggle into it beneath the covers, when someone knocked
at the door.
"Coming,"
Scott replied. He opened the door to reveal a very worried Jean and
an exhausted- looking Storm.
"Are you
all right?" Jean asked, peering inside to see Logan and Marie sitting in
bed. She wasn't sure if she'd been afraid for Scott's safety or for
Logan's, but having the two in such close proximity couldn't be good.
"I was so worried."
"I know,"
Scott said softly. "I'm fine. It's time for us to go."
"Good to
see you both again," Storm offered, waving a little at Rogue. Jean
tried to look anywhere but at the pair. But for the first time, Marie
didn't avoid taking a good look at Jean. Before, at the mansion, she'd
found it painful to even be in the same room as the red-headed doctor.
Feelings of inferiority and sadness always surfaced around Jean, and Marie
had found it best to simply remove herself from the situation. But
now, she looked right at Jean, taking the measure of her in.
She was
beautiful, Marie thought, but she was far from perfect. In the sunlight,
little lines pinched in at her eyes and mouth, her collarbones protruded markedly
beneath her skin, and her legs looked a little bow-legged. Marie had
never noticed these things before - she'd only been absorbed in her own imperfections.
I can see why they might want me, Marie thought. Jean's beautiful,
but I have some things she doesn't. I have a beautiful part or two
too.
Just then,
Jean caught Marie's eye for a split-second before hurriedly looking away.
Storm was already back out the doorway, on her way back to the plane.
Scott was about to take pity on Jean and usher her out the door, ending her
discomfort, when he noticed her raising her head once again. This time,
her gaze fell on Logan, and it was full of regret and despair, but there was
also something in it that was confident, intimate, almost taunting.
Almost taunting both of them - Logan and Rogue - with the fact that Jean had
been his lover, and that she felt she would always own a piece of his heart.
Scott's anger flared and he grabbed her by the arm.
"Jean -
let's go." Scott brusquely pushed her toward the door, then through
it. He cast one last look back at Rogue, an apologetic one, and then
shut the door behind them both.
Rogue stared
at the closed door for a few moments, then turned to Logan. He gathered
her close to him and breathe her in deeply. She smelled a little like
Scott, and a lot like Logan, but most of all, she smelled happy, content.
When he caught her eye, there was an abundance of warmth and love in her
expression. She leaned forward a little and gave him a soft kiss on
the lips.
"I love
you, Logan," she murmured, not really parting from him but simply resting
her nose and forehead against his.
"I love
you too, darlin'."
"Are you
OK with what happened last night?" Logan nodded. "I was thinking
about it this morning, you know, when I first woke up."
"Mmm?"
Marie felt Logan's warm hands begin caressing her back.
"I was thinking
that I've never felt that - that wanted before, that desired. It felt
good. It felt really good."
"I'm glad."
Logan dropped his head a little to begin kissing her neck.
"But then
I thought - wait a minute, you've always been that way with me. You've
always been very good to me and very loving." She gently took his head
in her hands, stopping his ministrations and making him meet her eyes.
"I just never noticed it, not really. I was - I was all caught up in
trying to make you happy, in trying to be what you wanted, that I never noticed.
I'm so sorry, Logan."
"It's all
right, baby. You're everythin' I ever wanted, you know that?"
Marie nodded.
"I love you very much. I'm glad - I'm glad for last night, but
I'm glad that it will be you and me from here on out, that those things, those
intimate things will be just between us."
"Always.
No one else. Not for me, darlin'."
"Not for
me either," she smiled. "Guess what?"
"What?"
"We're going
to have a baby." For the first time, Marie smiled broadly when she talked
about their child. Joy lit her features, and Logan thought he'd never
seen her quite so beautiful. "We're going to have to come up with baby
names, and we're going to have to get a crib and little baby clothes.."
"After we
make love, darlin'," Logan countered, drawing a playful giggle from Marie.
He smiled in return, and lay her back down in the bed.
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